Every night my mom would ask me “everythings okay right?” and I felt guilty by saying yes tonight. I mean its just one of the nights when I’m feeling really lousy. I really wanna pour out my troubles to her but I chose not to cos I know I’ve always been worrying her. I’m really stressed out and alongside with my insecurities, I really feel like shit. never felt so bad before- worthless, can’t do anything right, inferior zzzz sick of life

You’re my kryptonite~

Yesterday was probably one of the best days! I can’t explain how much I love the wind!

GPG is the best thing to me currently. ;)


holidays are ending and I don’t want it to end!!! I love to nua at my bed all day long and just stay @ home!! hahahaha but good things don’t last, we all know that.





i’m gonna remove my braces soon!! nooo!! i can’t bear to. i can’t imagine myself without those metals in my teeth! hahaha it’s gonna be a whole new world~



& I played back audition!

this explains my lazyness to clear the table T_T i didn’t even throw the dropping GE2 timetable GOSH hahaha!

just something new in my room! HAHA bags everywhere!

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Surprisingly, it’s my watch! hahaha it’s meaningful because it’s a birthday gift and it has been very useful to me, being with me thru my toughest time (o levels) HAHA cliche but true!

Insecurities

It’s once again one of the few days when I feel too ugly to go out, too ugly to face anyone. I’ve been hiding myself at home as I could not bring myself to face the outside world, yet.

&so, I’m not digging for compliments because if I wanted that, i could have posted this on facebook where more people would see it. It’s just what I feel and I know I shouldn’t have let insecurities get the better of me.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day

I wanna try to live the life of sufferings. I want to see how the other side of the world lives. Only through this way then we will truly treasure what we have, and be contented with life. I wanna stop complaining about everything and anything because the truth is- we’re really lucky to have 3 meals per day.

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at the same time, I wanna try being alexa/eliana, to experience a true fatherly love from jorge! <3

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

definitely the best time of my life. :)




best trip! lorry gang :)



FIRST EVER USS TRIP <3 meaningful to me :)

A picture is definitely not enough so I’ll put 3. While looking through all my photos, I realised how far apart friends can drift and how I don’t even talk to some of them now. it’s so sad! secondary school life ended and so is our friendship. but I know I have to catch up with them again and I don’t wanna lose anybody ;) they say friends come and go, but I WILL NEVER LET THEM GO!! hahaha it’s all in our hands. :)